The €25K Existential Crisis of Patrick Leonard
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Patrick Leonard, who busted once and reentered yesterday, begins Day 2 with 45,300. It's a number he's not too happy with; in fact, the last hand of Day 1 seems to have thrown Leonard into a bit of an existential crisis.
Late last night, after play had concluded, Leonard bared his poker soul in the popular TwoPlusTwo forum:
"I'm going to say this and I know its not going to sound good to investors, but I really dont feel like I should be playing 25k tournaments.
"I just took a bad beat which 99.9% of the time I take perfectly fine but here it hit me really badly. It was the last hand of the day, I've been happy all day, even when times were going really bad I was very optimistic and played as close to A game as possible, but when this river card happened, I can't really explain it but it hurt me mentally way more than it should have done.
"Walking back to my hotel I felt genuinely very, very sad and thats a pretty bad thing. Bad beats are part of everything, I should just accept it and move on to the next hand, but this time it just made me genuinely sad/upset and thats a terrible mindset to have."
There's a lot more to the post — which you can view in full here — but it's clear yesterday took it's toll on Leonard. The silver lining is that today is a new day, and in poker, truly anything can happen.
We'll keep an eye on Leonard throughout Day 2 to see if his luck changes.